Sunday, November 30, 2014


Love begins when the secrets are gone. -Plus nine boys

No wonder. I have tons.

Saturday, November 29, 2014

If Only

You said you are leaving me because you love me,
Those words that were uttered through tears, I can’t believe them.
But because you meant everything to me,
I refrain from holding you back, so as not to be a burden to you.
If you are doing what’s best for me, who is filled with memories of you,
If this is for my sake, who is collapsing little by little,
You should stay beside me, just as you are.
You can’t leave my side,
Even if I forget everything of this world, its ok,
If only I have him, if only I have him…
The times we laughed together,
The promises we made to each other,
I’ll remember them forever,
Think it through one more time,
You know what truly is best for me.
^ Watch over me forever by my side,
Don’t leave me,
Even if I forget everything of this world, its ok,
If only I have him, if only I have him…
If you are doing what’s best for me, who is filled with memories of you,
If you want to do what’s best for me, who is pathetically collapsing,
You should stay beside me, just as you are,
Don’t leave me.
Even if I forget everything of this world, its ok,
If only I have him, if only I have him…

Artist: Loveholic
Album: Nice Dream
Lyrics Translation:

Monday, November 24, 2014


I dated a man last year for few months, and eventually we got in a relationship, but we broke up a day after our 2nd monthsary. After 6 months we got back together, and few days, or was it a week, and some days after our 1st monthsary that we broke up again.

I removed his numbers, all the photos, messages, and audio recordings. I untagged several status, erased message thread, photos, clicked unfollow and even deactivated my facebook account for some time.

But who am I kidding? His number is in my head, somewhere in the pages of my diary, photos were sent in my email and hidden in my phone. I regret erasing the messages and especially the viber conversation. I did unfollow him, but we are still friends, and friends with his friends, sister, cousins, and checking his page is far from something difficult to do.

I want to forget but almost everyone reminds me of him, from my workplace where he once worked to my friends. His cousin is also the partner of my friend, not just a friend but one of my closest. Funny how my social circle is entangled with his.

I tried to avoid the songs that would remind me of him, but All of Me is being played everywhere. Say Something is the main soundtrack of the film I love, and Flying Without Wings haunt me.

How can I forget?
Do I really want to forget?

Every 7th of the month, I remember you.
Every single day I remember us.
How can I forget?

I have faith in God. Things happen for a reason. Something good would happen from our situation. Is it already happening?

How can I forget?
Some days I am thinking that you were not good enough for me. But also some days I think I was not good enough for you. Now, I think it was the timing that wasn't right.

I have a lot of questions.
Why, what happened, a series of questions that I did not ask you after you did not answer the first time I tried to make sense of it all. But you  actually tried to explain, but pride already got in the way, and I let you go. I wasn't ready back then, I was hurt, and was still in denial to hear your explantion, but you did not insist, and you let go.

I want to forget.
But how can I forget?

Things might be different if we already built our lives years ago. If we met when we're both successful in our careers, and financially stable. If we are not immature, if we aren't fickle minded. If we engaged our families to our relationship. If we are honest to each other. If pride does not exist. If we really take time to know each other.
If we are really decided to be together.

I really want to forget, but I can't forget you.
Maybe not now, maybe in the future.
But how can I forget? I like to get over you in a week, but maybe it would take me months, and hopefully not years.

But then again, how can I forget?

Sunday, November 23, 2014

The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Madness

Yesterday, I saw the epic adaptation of Mockingjay, the first half of the book. And now, I am stuck thinking of the whole series.

"The Hanging Tree" is on repeat in my playlist, and yes, so much feelings, and I feel like crying..ahh Peeta :(

Someone told me that I get too attached to what I read. Yeah, he's right about that, spot on.

Wednesday, November 19, 2014


Guess what, I want a pet.

I want a persian cat. A tamed lazy chubby cat ^_^

I'm not an animal lover, no, let me rephrase that, I'm not "that" fond of animals. Hoho
But I can't help, but feel the need to share my overflowing love from God. 
Ahhhhh!! I want a cat! But I should have my own place first in the city. Now I want my own space. I want a unit! Haha 

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

25 Random Facts

1. I am a woman
2. 25 years old
3. In a relationship with God #bornagain
4. Blank Space #lss
5.Obsessing with Blank Space mv
6.In a transit (real time)
7.Feeling wonderful
8.Stuffed (burp...hmmm nomnom bihon)
9.Period (girl thing)
10. Strat planning in my mind
11.Doesn't feel like eating processed food (for now)
12.On leave!!!!!! At last
13.Stronger (charot!)
17. Size 10
18. Scorpio
21.Cinematographer (someday)
22.Theater Actress (some days..feeling like one)
23. Dancing in my room - hobby
24. Not the sporty type
25. Lyrics - fascination

I'm Out!

Deserved quality time. Tuloy tuloy na ito hanggang end of the year.

What to do?

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Unapproved Vacation Leaves

Stress eating..

Tuesday, November 4, 2014


Credit: detoxifybar 

Monday, November 3, 2014

Now Happening

I'm trying..
I have four more days to make up my mind.


to free (as a drug user or analcoholicfrom an intoxicating or an addictive substance in the bodyor from dependence on oraddiction to such a substance.

Job well done. I was(still is) able to control myself from the "addiction".

Me talking to myself:Way to go :) **pat at the back**

Credit: Merriam Webster